| | Last night before i went to sleep, i kept on reading the book "The Altar of mY Soul" by Marta Moreno Vega
Its a book basically about her discovery of Santeria
Every day as i read more and more of this book, i feel a closer connection to the religion
I would really like to go to Cuba, Puerto Rico, Haiti or even the DOm. Rep and be able to see more in dept the religion and its practices
I read yesterday of how Marta saw her deceased grandmother in a dream she had and her grandmother spoke to her
As i drifted off to sleep, i started to think of Caribay
all i remember is one point where i saw her face and i saw her smilling back at me
For a moment, it really felt as if i was awake and she was really in front of me
i guess i still think of her a lot because I feel guilty
After Junior high, I didnt make the effort and neither did she to keep in contact. I mean, it was a friendship of about 5 years thrown in the garbage once we hit high school, it was pretty sad
I heard rumors about her and i dk, i guess i let them guide me and further i dk..maybe they made the distance grow even more.
I saw her on the street one day, I slowed my pace so as not to run into her, she was with a friend and I didnt want to interupt. I guess it also felt weird after not having seen her for 2 yrs. That was the last time i saw her alive
It hurts a lot the fact that i never got to say good bye to her and since the day we graduated, i never got to hug her or tell her how much she meant to me
Acting i dedicate it to her b/c she was the first person i ever acted with.
It hurts a lot
and santeria offers some sort of guidance and help with dealing with the dead
I dont know...life is hard...life is trying but i guess we need to learn to just live with it adnd go where the wind pushes us to...
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